haha . although my com is spoil , i nid to blog i guess ? haha . for fun uhh xDD ah , really feeling quite down lately . i dunno why just that kind of feeling if you know how i feel . i'm wanna study but cant bring myself to do it . at most 1 hour and i'm done O.o which is not enough . i tried to push myself but failed -.- wad to do ? haha . ah dang ! feeling so messed up right now . lyk nothing is going right in my life ! and i still can laugh haha . i really dunno wad i'm doing sometimes actually xDD ! first the freaking competition which is next friday ! and wad only 17 out of 96 counts had been 'practice' . hope it will be a success though . but i just have this feeling that the whole thing is gonna get screwed up -.- second ... contigent for the ISH opening . -.- i dun even know about this shit but i dunno why i'm feeling lyk something bad is gonna happen about it . third , o levels . i think i'm gonna screw up all the subjects ! ToT fourth , my life -.- just feel sooooooooooooooooooo eff up right now for wadever reason which i dunno . irritated easily and whatsoever . guess i'm stress ? but i dun feel anything but i guess that's it ba ? otherwise i wont be lyk so irritated easily and i wont irritate people -.- now i feel lyk a different me . haha . just feels weird . ARGH ! my hearts is feels with all kinds of emotions right now . -.- sad , happy , nervous , scared , bored , anxious .... blah blah -.- cant believe it lols . even songs cant calm me down right now -.- feel so ... dunno how to say . haha . just hope that i will be able to study as in really STUDY ! instead of just slacking around . though today i only use com to blog xDD ! maybe i'll do taht once everyday ? or maybe alternate days .


i wanna change myself -.-